Friday, June 26, 2009

Still hanging in there!

We have not yet received our new referral but hopefully it will be soon. I am still sad about Xin Yu and I pray every day God will find her forever family soon. We went to the airport yesterday to welcome home another family coming back from China with their new daughter and as we pull up Alana told us " I am sad" and we ask why and she said it was because she was tired of waiting for her baby Braeley to come home. So we used that open door to talk about God's perfect time and half way through I realized I needed to hear it too! The waiting is so hard especially when instead of going forward you find your self going backwards. But through it all I know God has a plan and is in control and I am grateful that in his wisdom He does what is best not what I want. I know in the end life will be so much better. But there is still a part of me struggling to understand and make sense of it all. He has led me to understand I don't have to agree with it, like it or understand it I just need to lay down my will and take up His will. Some things I don't think we will ever understand while on this earth. I am blessed beyond comparison in all that He has already done for us and trust Him enough to know He will soon work another miracle we just need to put our trust in Him and wait patiently(I hate that word!) :-) Anyway we are staying very busy with playgroup, bible schools, swimming, family, friends and home schooling. Keep us in your prayers as we (I,try to) wait patiently for Gods timing.